Missed, but a finally accepted loss.

Feeling moody always outs me thinking, and thinking either knocks me down or picks me up. Well, not always pick me up but this time it has definitely provided me with fortitude to move on. It's not like I now forsake her existence, but I've simply accepted that it's foolish to live on hope alone. I did that for months last time and it got me nothing. I'll take this as a chance to learn my own faults, and prepare myself for the future.

What happens now, I can't say. I know me, and I know I am extremely vulnerable and easy to capture to almost anybody that might try, not that any would. Notice I said almost, I still manage to keep some control, but I really am just a naive young man that trusts too much in what people say. I know what sort of person I like, both as a person and physically, but I hardly unreasonable, I'll put those things aside if I feel that they have no relevance. However, there are some things I will not compromise on, i.e. smoking. A vile and putrid habit that has no place.

I will put out some advice to everybody that I gave to Nikki last week. People aren't unreasonable or going to explode when you ask a question. Rather than speculate and assume and often get it wrong, just ask, it'll more than likely work out for you. Unless of course, you've picked someone completely unreasonable, in which case, take it as a sign.