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No band practise today, unforeseen family events for dan. Never mind though, still a good morning with Emily and Katie at the park, facepalm, shoe stealing, laut lachend. Not so much time though. David showed up later, did some stuff, came back and heres now.

Tbh I'm a bit bored.

Good weather, except for the stupidly strong wind at the park. It's always windy there. ALWAYS.

I think I'm just gonna out with it now, I wasn't sure I should since it was just a dream, well, a recurring one, but a dream none the less, but now it seems real, so I feel more sure about telling.

100 posts, time for something new.

What was just in a dream is most definitely turning into something real. I don't know how to word it but its there, and I feel it. Amy will understand this better than most. My mind whispers it to me while I sleep, and my heart screams it at me when I'm awake. It's funny, I've not been talking to her long but I can't keep her off my mind.

And before Amy says that's freaky, she should remember that we hadn't spoken at all. Keep that in mind.

Break your little heart is way too short. Epic, but short :/

Paramore in November, all of the music Jack's copying for me, sorting out feelings.
It all adds up to a high point.

Thank goodness for a chance to explain.

What in the name of the dark unicorns majestic journey could have made you heard that. I was almost a sickened by the suggestion as you were with what you thought you heard. Please start listening to the whole damn name fool, or it'll go down hill from hill. Oh my.

Well done Amy, for mishearing, making us both sick, and finding me a FB page. Well done indeed.

I would let myself be dragged to hell if it had been what you suggested, luckily, the actuality of it was far better. Far better indeed.

Now that's past.

Love All Time Low now. My music taste is slowly growing to include more bands. All rock/alternative though. I'm not about to accept in the 'others'





Everything needs time to flourish. Give it that time.

#8 (ignore order) Couldn't Resist It.

Verse 1
I followed this road
No end and darkness all around
Turns and twists away
None for the better
Then I found guides on the ground
I just couldn't resist it

Chorus
It was a sign I couldn't miss
Filling my dreams
Bringing me awake
What I wouldn't give for just one kiss
I just can't resist you

Verse 2
I followed my dreams
The shadows faded, brought forth the light
Clouds all silver lined
A change for the better
It started with just a word feeling right
And I just couldn't resist it.

Chorus
It was a sign I couldn't miss
Filling my dreams
Bringing me awake
What I wouldn't give for just one kiss
I just can't resist you

Even so far apart I can't resist
It feels like an endless gap
Even when your right with me
I want to be close to you
Close like never before

It was a sign I couldn't miss (Couldn't miss)
Filling my dreams
Bringing me awake (awake for you)
What I wouldn't give for just one kiss (just one kiss)
I just can't resist you
I couldn't resist X3

Feels like I'm falling in love alone.

Uniform fits. Beret is shaped. Just need some boots and I'm good to go.

Jack has converted me to All Time Low. Hence I'm using one of their lyrics as my title. That and I probably am. Thanks to Jack here. Lots of music coming my way all thanks to him. And all of it AWESOME.

Another dream. Different in all but the roles played. And it seems what my dreams weave for me while I'm asleep is affecting my waking feelings. It could be nothing, like Amy said, but I think that was while she hadn't quite understood what I'd said. Remember it always starts as nothing.

The Jedi squirrels were weird. Very so. Ducks to squirrels...gotta wake up Will...

But not all the way.

Some of its epic.

(None of it sexual before any of you get the wrong idea)

HEY!

Remember, I've trusted you.

Don't abuse that.

WTF IS THAT THING?!

Bob Dylan. Reincarnated into some insect parasite green wiggly thing. I don't fucking know.

Biology was pretty easy today, nothing I couldn't answer so I'm confident I've at least got a high A. A* would be great though. Money :D

I haven't properly read MLIA for a couple of days. :O Guess I can't be bothered with it right now, but as one of the last posts I read said, Biology is just Chemistry, Chemistry is just Physics, Physics is just Maths and Maths sucks.

Made me chuckle.

I really need to get out more.

Speaking of such, Festival tomorrow. Well, to be fair it's more commonly known as everyone come to Moulton day, so that should be fun.

Sunday = Band practise. No BS. It's happening one way or another.


Blargh.




And you have lost the game once again.


Farewell.

Not even exams can spoil this weather.

And we all know that mood is linked to the weather. You more likely to be damp, grey and depressing if its a grey and depressing day, but the sun makes everything better.

I still love Nickelback. Its just so awesome.

B3 is a bitch module.

Seriously.

And down to business.

Maybe I should tell somebody. Maybe not. *shrugs*. We'll have to see won't we? Although, I suspect somebody maybe drawing conclusions of their own.

That'll just make it take longer you know.

I think I'll talk to Robert. He's good for a casual information sharing. And he's trustworthy. I think. Don't disappoint me, or I'll be back with an eye patch and a white cat, and you will die.

Cloud. Silver Lining. Cloud. Silver Lining. See it yet?

I'm sort of lucky in a way. I'm very outside to this shroud of melancholy that hangs over our group like a plague. Everyone seems to have caught it. 'Cept me and Jack of course. Everyone's been troubled emotionally, either on the surface or in the deep shadows of their being where no-one can see. Yet, Jack has his dose of happiness, fed to him from an outside source. And me? I'm basically an exception to the rule. I'm outside the picture. I know it's all there, and that's not leaving, but it doesn't know about me yet. I think I'd to keep that way. It won't get me. No doubt. I'm a fighter for good causes, and keeping at least a feeling of neutrality alive for everyone is a damn good cause.

It seems weird but I think in part, it was that odd dream I had that saved me. I may not have appreciated it right at first since waking up at 6am with a dry mouth isn't too fun, but it opened up my mind to the outside world. Slipped off the hold of a years futile waiting, and cast it away. I don't have the ghosts of regrets. Just a chance to start something new. Restore some life. All because of an unlikely appearance by an unlikely person in a unlikely dream. At a very convenient time. Just as I needed that last push to let go, I got it and I was better for it.

And no, I'm keeping the details of the unlikely person to myself because it would be WAY too premature for that. Far too much so.

Interesting things.

Yet to happen.

So yeah.

Yet, for all intents and purposes, I wouldn't have it many other ways. I mean, nothing can go drastically wrong, if nothing drastic happens.

Yes, I'm a silver lining kind of guy.

Silver lining right now?

A new start for me. Not held back by fictions of my mind. A cornucopia of options out there. I just need to chose one and I think I'd like to make a reasoned decision, so I'm going to go ahead and find reasons for my reasoning, and reason a certain direction form all the others by using specific and undeniable reasoning.

*yawn*

Bit of a late one for you here. 01:08 in the morning, just watched avatar. Yeah, it's still amazingly good.

I may be tired, but I'm not careless. Correct spelling and grammar throughout.

I should probably sleep, but I know I'll just wake up early with a mouth as dry as an Arab's sandal. Not nice.

But then again...

Another of those dreams would be nice...

We'll see.

Goodnight world.














Hoorah...

Change and Pride.

I've finally finished part 4 of my series. Well, its not that much since its the only part I have. Its a different story line to 1, 2 and 3, so that's how I could write it without having those 3. Once I get back the printed copy of part 1 I'll be able to get to work on that.

Iron man 2 is epicly awesome. Now I has AC/DC and Nickelback pleasing my ears.

I have moved on. It's been a long time in the making but it's happened. Now I'm in the process of moving on further to someone else. There will be more updates on that but for now I'm not too sure about who it will be, but it appears my head already has some idea. *Glares at self in gesture to his dream*

That really was a bit crazy, but I think it's a bit too long lasting to be nothing, since I haven't stopped thinking about that particular person since it happened. We shall see what becomes of this.