Just don't. EVER!

Never ever make the mistake of thinking 'oh, he'll be alright, he prefers to be by himself anyway' I've got some fucking news for you, i hurt just like every person, probably easier than some, i just try to kept it to myself and not be a rain cloud over everyones days, but some times its just to fucking much. I was left with no company besides my own thoughts, and that always go horrible wrong. I always start of by running events through in my head, normally different than they actually happened and most likely better, and i forget the misery of life, then i stop and look around and its like being hit by a brick when i come back to the real world. Then i spend the rest of the time being dismal inwardly thinking about the full insignificance of my life, and i get teen depression. Without people around to distract me from this cycle, or without being with people that i just generally enjoy being with, this keeps running and running until one day (like today) something just happens and it just builds up to be too much and I fall in to a dark pit of self degradation, i dont see the reason behind my own exsistance, i become detached from everybody, and that makes it even worse, its a vicious circle. It takes something special to drag me back, and it just wasnt there.