Feeling damn good for no good reason.

I just feel so much better about myself recently. Maybe its because I can't be bothered to chase so I decided to stop instead. I hunted through my feelings and I found something that surprised even me. (I mean they're my feelings and I didn't see it coming)

"Everyone was so enthusiastic" "that's what she said" LOL

Amy, I'm dreadfully sorry, but this groping thing has to end. It's almost embarrassing.


Ah the realisation you have no school for 2 and a half weeks :D

I WANT THAT GAME.

Dreams just aren't enough, but sometimes they're all you have.

That is all.

No really, I just have no words for it.

How to know if you suffer from life's most serious disease. Love.

1:When you walk into a room you know they should be in, they are the first face you look for.

2: Whenever you see them, an armada of butterfly's kick up a party in your stomach.

3: You don't feel right unless you see them everyday

4: Whenever your with them or talking to them, there's never long enough.

5: They're your first of the day.

6: They're the last thought of your day.

7: Being without them hurts.

8: You side with them.

9: You hate it when they're sad and you want to help them.

10: You never pass up a chance to hold them.

11: You hate seeing them flirt/being flirted with/with any other girl/guy (See, it's still considerate of gender)

12: You never forget any time you had together.

13: If anyone says there too good for/not good enough for you, you just want to hit them in the face.

14: The idea of feeling any other way about them seems weird and unnatural.

15: You feel comfortable with them.

16: You can admit to loving them and be proud and unhesitating about it.

17: You find it hard to keep your eyes off them.

18: You can explain why them to anybody.

19: They can crush or make your day with a single expression/word.

20: Your less than angry if they text/ring you in the night.

21: You would try to meet them anywhere, any time.

22: Your reading this thinking of them to try and prove to yourself you love them.

Alternately 22: You are so sure your just reading this for kicks.

Yeah I don't why I bothered with this. All you in love people should know this by now, and if your not an in love person then why did you even bother. I mean seriously, why?

Maybe its cause I'm procrastinating. I don't want to do geography revision. BORING.

I know. Do you?

Shapop!

Yeah. You know it.

Congrats Jack.

Now that's done.

I feel so much better recently. It might be cause I was wrong and I jumped to the wrong conclusion, and it's so much better knowing the truth this time.

I died. Don't worry, I got better.

I should probably write some music t go along with my songs, but I can't be bothered right now.

Twister anybody?

I should so invest in one of those hats...

and some aviators...

I made the right choice.

...and the Puppy Legion marched to their doom against the iron ranks of the Kitty Invader

^^^^ Yeah, I don't know either ^.^

Grading today, which I don't think I could fail if I tried. Well maybe, but it would be close.

I'm a peace-keeper/maker.

I shall make you get along whether you like it or not. Not through direct force, but overwhelming logic and understanding, impartiality and desire to achieve. And achieve peace I will. If not for myself, then for everyone else. Resistance is futile.

Shadadabam!

That is all.

I call 7!!

7 songs in 4 months. BooYah!! :D

Diligating obligations

'Go read my blog you douche'

For when you cant be bothered to explain your feelings.

Yup, still alikin' Nickelback.

I've got all these lyrics on here now, but none of them have been put into a band situation. It's so frustrating waiting to get a chance to apply your work and have it appraised/criticised heavily and discarded.

#7 Never Giving Up

My first new lyric post in quite awhile, I just haven't been up to it recently, but here we go (your fucking damn right that's 5 songs now =D)

Verse 1
I can never forget what was there before
I can never let go of what might have been
I'm stuck in the past and in that scene
And the only place I'd rather be
Is with you in the now

Chorus
There's been anything quite so sure
Or anything that as much as this
Everyday I love you more and more
I'm never giving up on this feeling
And I'm holding on forever

Verse 2
Its been far to long for me to give up now
Just to try is like a knife through the heart
It kills the thought as soon as it starts
Just holding on causes pain I can't bear
But letting go causes more

Chorus
There's never been anything quite so sure
Or anything that means as much as this
Everyday I love you more and more
I'm never giving up on this feeling
And I'm holding on forever

Bridge
No-one else could mean more than you
The fish in the sea don't mean a thing
When I'm alone in this desert

There's never been anything quite so sure
Or anything that means as much as this
Everyday I love you more and more
I'm never giving up on this feeling
And I'm holding on forever
Without you something isn't right
Your my last thought every night
And the first with new light
I'm never giving up on this feeling
And I'm holding on forever

I just can't do it..

It doesn't matter. I can't bring myself to just let go. I thought it hurt to hold on, but I'd never tried to let go. That's like a knife in the heart, and whether anything changes or not, this is how I feel.

There I said it.

Nickelback. Nickelback. Nickelback. Thinky times. OMG MORE NICKELBACK

Yup. I've gotten into Nickelback. Perfect blend of lyrics. Dirty or pure. Deep or shallow. And some kick-ass guitar in there too. Its just all perfectly balanced.

I should really buy some their albums...

I am so jealous of Dan. Saw them live. TWICE. I wanna go someday...

Do I really anymore....
Or maybe...
Is it worth it...
Hold on...
Let go...
Move on...
I not sure of anything right now. What seemed so solid for nearly a year is now so unclear and dubious.

I f only there was someone who could help me with this. Someone could clear it up for me, make it easier to see, easier to solve. Help...please

Ima so gonna be a doctor.

NICKELBACK PLAYLIST XD

NOT AGAIN!!

Another damn cold.

Sucks.

Now I've fully convinced myself to change, I'm going to give it a proper go. I'm definitely going to look outside our group/former group/day to day friends this time. I think we've all had enough of that shit.

Lets play the logic game. What two parts of the school system have very little contact. Answer, X and Y. Due to 3 years of non mixed lessons, X and Y's are like strangers in each other's school, so it's a great chance to make new friends. If not, there's always other schools and outside organisations. All in all, there's a heck of a lot of people out there, if your willing to look that is.

The future

Been looking at Sixth form options, and opportunities to study medicine. Sixth form: I have chosen to take Biology, Chemistry and English Language. All chosen with Med school in mind. Yes guys, I'm deadly serious about that. Even if the requirements are extremely high. I need, to have a fighting chance of acceptance, 7 GCSEs at A*, 3 As at A-level in Chemistry, another science and one other subject. Its going to be a lot of hard work, getting the GCSEs, the A-levels, and if I get accepted then the 5 year course will be very tough, and then if I pass the MBChB and become a doctor, it wont get easier. It'll be pressure, stress and constant hard work. However, that doesn't bother me because I'll know I'll be doing something worthwhile and making a difference. (and there is of course the pay....)